Deliverance

I've been going through a rough time.  A really rough time.  I have been faced with a situation that I never thought would happen again....separation from a person I deeply love and care about.  And yet, God manages to sustain me during this difficult time.

Something struck me as I was reading through my weekly Sown Bible study that I wanted to share with all of you:  God may not save us from the problem, but He will deliver you out of it.  Did you get that?  He won't SAVE us, but He will DELIVER us. 

So many times, over these last 2 weeks, I've cried out to God, begging Him to take my pain away, to give willing hearts allowing Him to work, to let me trust Him to fix it.  And He's given the same answer to me the same amount of times....the experience I've had for the past year has grown me.  It has changed who I am in Christ. 

I don't just want to sit on the sidelines.  I want to be in the game.  I want to be an amazing mother.  I want to teach my children how to love God with abandon.  I want to teach them how to honor God and worship Him because He's worthy of it.  I want to be a great wife.  I want to honor my husband and respect him and cherish him as only a wife can.  I want to be one with my husband.  I want to put him first and him do the same.  I want to always have his back and I want to know he always has mine.  I want people to see me and say "WOW.....why does she always seem like, no matter what, she's joyful and content?!"

And that's why God doesn't save us.  When He's ready, He'll deliver me.  I have no doubt.  I cry out to Him and I pray that things can be reconciled, but I also know that God will provide the most amazing future for Shawn's family and for mine, if we'll only let Him. 

I'm thankful He DIDN'T save me from this, but I do look forward to His complete deliverance.